Sometimes it is hard to choose between 2 things when those 2 things are very important to you. At the same time you wonder if that other thing even is aware of all the things that you have done for them. Should I continue to pursue this relationship or is it a dead end? But at the same time I really do care and love for this girl. She was the one that I thought I would marry someday. Did I fuck up somewhere? If so where and when? Is it cause I have nothing? Is it because it is not the right timing? I wonder if she wants to continue the relationship? Do 2nd chances even work? We will find out tomorrow. Hopeful it is worth it.